Dear angels, I feel sad again tonight, emotional. P and I talked on the phone. It was very hard speaking, knowing that my words and thoughts would be heart-wrenching to us both. I did not convey any excitement about a bright future but I know we both feel much love in our hearts. How can I know what is the truth of my heart? I love him and yet I feel we would ultimately part ways. I don’t want to part ways anymore, with anyone. I don’t want to say goodbye. In the physical world, the laws that each of you is subject to are the physical laws of nature. Life comes, life seems to go, people come and people go. The seasons change, all changes. Life is filled with change and this is the way that life was designed so that each and every soul on Earth, each and every being of light would better understand with each minute or each grand change that there is no such thing as permanence in the physical world, but that the soul and spirit are forever.
You have this opportunity with P to better understand what your life is made of, what your thoughts and feelings are, what you want, what you don’t want. Look into the heart of P and see the beauty that is within him. P is indeed a piece of your heart. You see within him the gentleness of spirit, the kindness, the commitment to teaching, the love of his family, the beauty of his appreciation of nature, his commitment to making the world a better place one person at a time. You see within him the stamina on the court, the desire to help shape the people he works with – the youth – into beings of greater character, to take their natural inclinations and develop them as speaks to the passion within each of them. These are some of the many gifts that P has and that you see within him.
But you can see these beauties and appreciate them without having to hold them. You see, P is a free man, as are all men, all people. There is no “holding” of another being save the holding that we may perceive within our own egotistical intentions. Have you desired to control P, to control his thinking or his emotions? Have you desired to change who he is on any level, and shape him to better fit your concept of who you feel he might be so as to better serve your needs?
If you answered yes to any of these questions, then you can see that you are looking at P at least on some levels through a lens of the ego, which is the lens of fear.
Now, you have been looking at your fear beliefs, and you have seen that – like with all humans – these beliefs are myriad. They are as plentiful and the stars in the sky. And at times they are as bright. Others, thank goodness, are a fading and as transient as shooting stars.
This is to say that you are about change. You are looking at your fear beliefs and you are pulling them into the light and you are discarding them one by one. This is an eternal task, that is, within the physical sphere of Earth, which is the planet of healing and cleansing, your purpose is to shed your fears and to remember the being of light that you fundamentally are. You are on an eternal path to soul and spirit expansion, and in time, or in the eternal span of your being, you will rejoin the Creator in the consciousness that you focus your being upon, such that you will BE, in all your facets, in all your glory, in all your BEING, the totality of the Creative Energy that the Creator is, and you will be ONE with the Creator.
But this is an eternal process, one that did not begin yesterday or a lifetime ago, but uncounted years ago, when there was no physical domain of any sort, when you were just thoughtform, and all was a sea of thought of the Creator.
You see, there is a grand task that you are in the midst of accomplishing: the task of opening up your mind, expanding your mind to the awareness of the magnificence of your soul and spirit. You are becoming truly aware that you have spirit energy, and that it is guiding you in each and every moment to become, to BE, all that you are within.
Without, you are a physical being. Within, you are a soul and spirit of grand dimension. And it is this soul and spirit that you speak with and that speaks with you in these moments of your angel communication.
Now, P is another being of light that shares with you the divine purpose of coming to better understand his fears. He has been adrift somewhat in recent years in the hold of his professional focus. And this focus has brought him much satisfaction but it has also given him opportunity to put aside, for a time, a focus on the expansion of his deeper mind, his awareness of his soul and spirit.
And so, as you have joined together in this time with P you have both stimulated the “chakras” as it were, the energy centers of your beings, to think more about what you want in the deeper senses and what you are willing to do to get there.
For each of you, the goals are somewhat different. No judgment should be had here. Do not judge the differences. They are what they are and there can be nothing but appreciation for the beauty of the choices that each of you has made that has brought to you in your lives the elements of joy and appreciation. You both have tremendous appreciation for the many joyful elements of your lives.
But you have come together for the mutual sharing and illuminating that would be done when souls touch souls and spirits touch spirits. There is electricity. There is magnetism. There is knowing. There is expansion. There is light. There is joy. And at times, on the physical level, there can be sadness when the physical awarenesses do not necessarily match the soul and spirit knowings.
This is to say that you and P have come together in the physical world to provide your soul and spirit with a set of experiences that would trigger you to gain measures of soul and spirit growth. But soul and spirit growth can be perceived by the physical being as painful, at times, when the lesson that triggers the pain is not acknowledged.
So here is your opportunity to acknowledge what your lessons are with P.
With P, your lessons have been to let go of attachment to the physical; to appreciate the love that a soul gives to you unconditionally; to accept the gift of love without feeling that you must own the gift or the giver; to speak openly and cheerfully; to not blame; to be loving; and to communicate with heartfulness but not with control.
For P, we will just say that his lessons are, like for all people, unique and individual to his own self. It is not important to identify them here. It is important, though, to know that P cares for you deeply in his heart and that his commitment to you as a soul and spirit is grand and unconditional and genuinely extended through the generous spirit and kindness that is, indeed, quintessential to the soul and spirit of PP.
Look into the face of P and see a kindred spirit who cares for you, loves you, and knows that your heart is open to him in free reciprocity. He knows that you love him. And herein lies the bond, the eternal bond that you share. He is one with you, as you are with him, for the duration of your time as souls and spirits walking the Earth. Rejoice in this relationship. It is not unique, but it is divine and blessed in its truth.
Now, you are each set with the task of understanding these truths and integrating them into your lives. How best might you do this? You can do this by continuing to speak openly and freely with each other. Keep your lines of communication open because within you speak to one another, so let the world, the physical world be a true representation of what moves within you both.
And as you speak, remind one another that you care deeply and that your commitment to remain true friends is a commitment you intend to honor. What is a friend? A Friend is a Universal relationship of love, truth, equality, independence, and freedom, with courage and conviction in each friend to maintain the relationship despite the trials or the dramas that may arise. A friend in need is a friend pure and simple. We each need a friend and therefore to be a friend is to honor the simple need that each of us has, as an evolving, loving being, to connect with a special someone.
Remember also that times will arise when your friendship may be challenged, and it is at these times that you may show one another, either through your actions or your words or both, that you intend to stay in the realm of protecting the friendship. There is joy in knowing that a relationship remains anchored in the firm ground of faith. Trust one another. Know that all will be well.
Reach out to P and share with him your soul commitment to him. Help him to understand, as you help yourself to understand, that love is realized through commitment to sharing. And whether or not the sharing has a physical counterpart, it can still be sharing of great magnitude. You have the opportunity to share deeply with P. It is a blessing to share on this level with him. Honor, respect, and value this gift that he has given to you. And as you honor his gift, you give him a tandem gift: the gift of your love and respect and appreciation.
Sleep gently, knowing that your friendship with P is true in your heart, and that his is true, and that your time of togetherness, even as it may change in its physical expression, can indeed grow on a soul and spirit level. Tonight you have expressed your desire for change. Now see where the change will take you both. See what you can preserve. See what you can develop. See what you can grow.
When you left P's house in Vermont, he gave you a handful of seeds, and he asked you to plant these seeds with him. He was totally intending for you to understand the symbolism of this act of nurturing and growth. It is critical for your soul and spirit to do the same with him. Give him the seeds within your heart to grow and advance that which is important to you both. And what is always most important is love. Know this and watch the seeds grow.
