Wed, Nov 26, 2008, 9:10 PM

Dear angels, higher self: It’s been a long time since I’ve written. I’ve been enjoying my work with IMS, especially the slides, but I’ve been stumped with some of the video challenges and this has hampered my motivation. Can you help me gain a new perspective on my work? I really want to honor my commitment and maintain a high level of motivation. I need to get through the technical challenges.

When we encounter obstacles in life – so-called “obstacles,” they are none other than challenges that our very own soul and spirit have designed for us to provide a learning experience and an opportunity to grow. You see, when we are in “business as normal” mode, we often do not move forward in life. We stay in our safe little cocoon, not knowing that there is more to life and actually not “caring” if there is more in life. Actually we are protecting ourselves from the “more in life” when we are in our safety zones of known quantities.

So it is very good when our soul and spirit designs a challenge for us because this means that we are truly ready to move forward.

So you see, your challenge is less to rise to the physical challenge than it is to understand that this challenge is one of your own making – and one that you have chosen uniquely for yourself so as to provide you with the impetus to move forward to the next level of understanding.

Now, the ego is always a player in these circumstances. The ego is a very careful, cautious, hidden player because the ego hides behind “happenstance,” making you believe that what lies before you is something of an externally-driven circumstance. The ego wants you to feel that you do not have the power to do what is before you. The ego wants you to think that you have better things to do with your time than rise to this challenge. The ego wants you to believe that you are incapable of understanding and figuring out solutions to the problem. The ego wants you to think that you are a victim of the challenge and that poor you – all you need to do is find a distraction and this “problem” will go away.

The ego is clever. The ego is coy. The ego is always, always wrong. There is never an instance when the ego speaks truth. The very nature of the ego is deceit and untruth.

So, you must not believe the voice of the ego because the path that the ego lays out before you is a path fraught with pitfalls and potholes. Do not go where the ego beckons. There is no productivity in following the voice of the ego.

Rather, look to your higher self, your loving self, your very wise and inscrutable self, the self that is not often recognized, and see that this is truly the self that wishes to be known, acknowledged, and honored for the special challenge that it has designed for you.

Now, you must know that you do have within you all the intellectual, emotional, and sensory tools that you need in order to solve the problems that are vexing you. This is to say that you do indeed have the power, all on your own, to figure out a solution to the problem. You may call upon friends and you may call upon whatever resources you have, but in truth the answers are already within you. You must clear the mind just like you clear the palette before a fine meal, in order to have clarity of vision and purpose. You must OPEN the mind to the answers that are already within, and allow those answers to become known. The answers are within. This is always where answers lie. It is like a treasure hunt though. You will find one answer, and this answer will lead you to another answer, and that answer will lead you to another. There is a system, a connected system of related thoughts, related answers, related issues. All are tied together in a sophisticated network of related issues and ideas.

In truth, the connections are chemical ones. All that is within the mind is a series of chemical relationships. Memory is chemical. When you remember something, it is actually a chemical relationship that is being established in the brain. There is magnetism and electricity that is part of the chemical equation. All of these forces are aspects of the energy of you that allows you to be a highly functioning human being. This is why it is critical for each of you – each human – to be forcefully committed to maintaining the highest viability of chemistry within. To eat organic foods, to eschew exposure to toxins, to keep the purity of the physical body at the highest possible level – this should be the goal of every human being because it allows for the body and the mind and the senses and the emotions to operate at peak capacity.

Fear is the most insidious form of a blocker that has ever been known to man. An ounce of fear can wreak major damage on any body, any mind, any being. Fear is the great destroyer. It is a huge ship of destruction. It can render impotent any memory, any cellular pattern of health, any strong mind, any healthy body. Fear is the chemical pattern of destruction. It should be the pursuit of every human to recognize fear in all its myriad forms, and to release fear and all fear beliefs, because it is our fear beliefs that connect us to our undeveloped past and hold us captive in that environment.

Now, you have before you a challenge of your own creation: how to download the video from your new camera onto your computer, and how to work with this video footage. You have all the tools that you need at your disposal. You must make a list and number the list from one to ten. Next to each number you write the challenge – the task – that is yours to accomplish – to perform. And then next to each task you write the process of accomplishing that task. And if there are special manners that you must engage in, then you write what those are. You write the definitions to the new words – the new vocabulary. You become conversant with the language. You run the tutorials where needed. You try – engage in trial and error.

And you must be diligent. Establish a set of goals, time-wise and otherwise, and you abide by the goals that you have established. Honor your goals. They are yours. They are your creations. They are designed by your soul and spirit because your soul and spirit are infinitely wise and infinitely loving and they understand what you uniquely want and need and this juncture, each micro-juncture of your life. There is never an instance of life and living that is not a creation of the soul and spirit of you, unless it is a creation of the ego, the masterfully-disguised child of the intellect that wants no progress.

Now, ahead is something very, very exciting. Ahead is the online school that has been waiting to be born into the full light of day. Many are waiting to avail themselves of this special home of knowledge. You see, for centuries you have been involved in the creation of this school. It does not matter what the physical home of this school is – online or in the streets or in the homes or in a church or in a physical school building. There is no “place” where knowledge belongs other than in the mind and in the heart of the human who seeks it. The online school is simply a mechanism for taking inspiration and bringing it to the masses. This is the purpose of the online school: to bring the knowledge that your teacher has shared with you – to others who seek it. Reach out your hand and see that the knowledge you share will in turn be shared, and shared and shared and shared. There are infinite ways to share the knowledge, and it is your revered goal, your purpose, to help in that sharing. This sharing has brought you infinite joy and creative expression, and it is part of your soul heritage. To honor that heritage is to honor your soul and spirit in remembering, throughout time, that knowledge is to be shared.

Remember that you are very well supported by your colleagues in this effort. They, too, are remembering their soul and spirit purposes, and together you are cooperating to bring a piece of your shared past into the present age. There should be great joy in sharing this purpose. You see, there is so much sharing on so many levels. It is no coincidence that your first course will be “Sharing.”

Now, keep your purpose – your many purposes – in the forefront of your mind. Do not forget what you have come to do, and what the gains will be. At another time we will discuss the gains. But for now, remember the joys of creating and the joys of sharing. Be courageous. Be adventurous. Be happy with the creation of the online school. What you give to the school will be given to many others as a gift that eternally pays forward. This is one of the laws of the universe: that which is expressed continues to be expressed in greater and greater measure. The universe is continually expanding, and with it YOU TOO expand. So the energy that you give to the school is in effect an insurance policy for your own expansion. There is never a moment of giving that is not rewarded with equal and greater gifts in return.

So this work that you do with the school is a gift to yourself and to others with whom you share the knowledge. Be blessed, feel the blessing of giving and receiving because the school is the embodiment of both.

Thank you for your work and for your interest in uncovering the fears that impede your progress. In truth, there is no fear within as you uncover the love. Love is truly all there is, and it is with this love that you create the gifts you are sharing with the school and with your compatriots who are depending upon your work as a tandem gift to their own.

Thank you for listening.

Good night.

Tue, Sep 30, 2008, 10:44 PM

Dear Higher Self: These last few months have been very enjoyable but momentous in a number of ways with E moving to college and my work with IMS coming to the fore again, and my friendships solidifying further. I feel happy, joyful, and yet at times nervous and edgy about the tasks in front of me. I feel it is time to lose my fear, to dig deep into my roots and discover myself; to make major changes, to quiet myself finally. How will I accomplish all these tasks, these challenges? What tools do I need?

L, for many years you have been working to prepare yourself for this time. You have been learning about metaphysics; you have been learning about yourself; you have been giving the gift of friendship and receiving the gifts in return. You have, most of all, been nurturing E and in the process nurturing your own soul so that you would be ready, when the time came, to hunker down and commit yourself to the greatest change you have ever known: the change from fear to love. This change is the change that Jesus sought to confirm when he went into the desert, the high desert, for 40 days and 40 nights.

You see, Jesus was an extremely advanced soul, the Michael’s Light of the Earth, who is there, was there, to show mankind the way and the light. So you are following in the footsteps of Michael’s Light, of the loving light of the Father/Mother God, the Eternal Spirit of Love, the Christ Consciousness, as it expresses itself in the hearts of all of mankind, that we may each move forward in our soul evolution, our soul advancement. For this is our path, our eternal path: growth, change, advancement, evolution, learning, knowledge, wisdom, light, eternality, being all that we truly are.

So this is your time, L, to prove to yourself, to show yourself, that you have within you all the tools that you need in order to make significant strides – leaps – in your advancement, in your growth, if this is what you choose to do. You must make the conscious choice to change – because no one can force change upon you. It must be of your own choosing.

Are you choosing to change? Are you choosing to embrace light, and love, and to cast away your fears and to live, LIVE life from the consciousness of love? How do you live your life on a daily basis? Do you bring fear into your mind? Do you share fear thoughts with others? Are you living in the lightest way so that you, as a being of light, help light the way for others?

You see, it is not for us to live our lives one way – in fear – and to speak of our change in other terms that contradict the manner in which we are living. You see, this is a level of untruth. Untruth, or relative truth, takes place where there is dissonance in the thoughts, words, and actions of mankind. To live seamlessly in our thoughts, words, and actions – this is truth.

So your pursuit is one of truth. To BE truth, to speak truth, to know the truth and to behave in the manners that are consistent with truth – THIS is what you aspire to. This is what you seek. This is a worthy goal: to seek truth and to BE the truth that we seek.

Now, ahead of you lie many challenges that your soul and spirit have been preparing you for. You are consciously aware of these challenges because you are actively seeking to honor them and to bring them life in the physical world. This is to be commended. You are pursuing your dreams with eagerness and with a certain flourish that is quintessential to your being. We relish participating in these flourishes with you because they bring us joy. We share joy when we merge our consciousnesses of love, truth, and creativity. Creativity is of the physical world, but it is a spiritual act when inspired by spiritual thought.

So – what do you wish to create?

I wish to create love in this world. I feel judgment though. I feel energy threads of anger and hostility at times as I rehearse my grudges. I would like to let these go.

You may let them go by consciously choosing to change your thoughts. When you feel the threads of fear, change - consciously change those threads to loving threads. You will feel the energy change within you, and this will nurture you.

Keep the good work flowing. Much lies ahead.

We can feel you twitching. We can end this internal dialog for now and resume later. Good night and God bless.

Sun, Jul 6, 2008, 8:30 PM

Dear higher self: I’m feeling a lot of abundance in the relationship category and it feels really good! But I also see that I need to be ever vigilant about using ethical values and being respectful, considerate, truthful and careful about people’s feelings. I am especially concerned about how I treat C. I am so grateful that we are being friends now, but I feel that the memories of our love are right beneath the surface for us both and could come to the fore at a time when perhaps it is best that they do not. How can I be mindful of C’s feelings and at the same time explore all there is for us to appropriately explore and for me to also feel my freedom to explore other relationships?

Let us take these feelings one at a time and make sure that you are exploring all there is to explore in order to grow as much as you can in this relationship with C and with others. Needless to say, relationships are all about the opportunities we give ourselves for growth. You enter and re-enter relationships over and over again in life after life for the opportunities that each gives you to grow and expand your consciousness and your emotional strength and resilience and your thinking and your physical behavior. All aspects of yourself come into play in each relationship.

Let us look first at your relationship with C. This is a karmic relationship, a relationship of twin souls trying deeply to connect and restore and reinvigorate and to bring to life the potential that is within each of you to love fully and to love ethically and to BE the relationship of total acceptance, appreciation, respect, and value that you fundamentally have for each other.

Now that you are relating in a positive way again, you have the option, the choice, the power and the privilege to do this in a totally ethical way. For you now, as you are seeking your freedom to explore another relationship, you must be truthful with C so that he is aware of your intentions. This truth can be alarming to him as it may be counter to where he is moving, or feeling that he wants to move, at this time.

Tune into C. Listen to your thoughts about C. How can you be respectful of him and at the same time explore another relationship in front of him? Is this the most gentle manner of being? Is this showing him the care and appreciation that you have for him and for the sacrifices that he is making for you to be in his life at this time?

If the answer is no to any of these questions, then perhaps it would be to your advantage to be discrete and gentle with his feelings so that you are not at odds, at least in appearances, at least on the surface, with your goals and his.

Now, it is totally fair that you be free to explore any relationship that you want. But you cannot expect C to make financial arrangements for you and at the same time you not be in the kind of relationship with him that allows for the financial arrangement to be honored. This is to say that as you connect with C in the many threads of ways that you do, you can be aware of the implications of those threads. Examine the threads and see if they are ethical and fair and respectful and valuing of the gift that C is making to you as he honors a bond of trust between you.

C deeply cares for you. You are twin souls. He is a part of you as you are a part of him. You can speak openly and truthfully with C so that he understands what your intentions are. Along these lines, you can be prepared for the physical repercussions to manifest as they might, as they will as the Universe seeks to make so a reality for you so that you can see the cause and effect relationship between all behaviors and all physical outcomes of the behaviors.

There is the physical relationship that you seek to make real with R. There is no judgment of this desire. It is whatever it is and you will learn from whatever you engage in on any level. But because this relationship could implicate C in ways – because it could affect him, it is reasonable to be prudent in how you go about exploring it. There is much to explore with R. He is a good man who has a heart of gold and a desire to learn from you and to explore life with you for a time, for a good time, for the benefit of you both. This is worth exploring but it can be explored in a way that will be comfortable for you both and for C as C seeks to also maintain and actually build upon his relationship with you. Be aware of the lasting value of each so that you know where to put your greatest energy. You can see that a relationship with C will endure for all time. A relationship with R will endure for a time but this time may not bring the fruit that you seek, in totality, in a partner. But he can occupy your thoughts for awhile if you let him. This can be an enjoyable partnership. Allow it to unfold as you might a rose from its bud in a garden. Your relationship with R will unfold in a gentle manner if this is what you seek. Enjoy the unfolding and share in openness as you bring gifts to one another. But remember the Girl Scout song, “make new friends, but keep the old, one is silver and the other gold.” C for you is the gold. He is the ace in the hole, the gold standards in that he is your twin soul and he seeks to unite, to reunite, from the truest of love that he has in his heart. Believe in his love and it will reward you for all of time.

Now, there are other loves that you seek because this time for you is a time of adventure and exploration. You are enjoying the bounty in the relationships that are coming and going in your life. Much can be learned. These relationships are in part karmic as you seek to sew up, as it were, the karmic debts that you have incurred. This just means that you are on the fast track to learn some of the lessons with these individuals that had been lingering. There is a fierce commitment on the part of you and certain individuals to learn these unlearned lessons and to climb the evolutionary ladder with alacrity and force. This is needed. The time for growth and change is now. It is good that you seek change and that you seek to advance your soul. Advancement is much needed in our world and with your commitment you may find this advancement accelerated. This is good. Your commitment TO YOURSELF is unfolding as it should. You are blessed to be learning your lessons with joy and enthusiasm and with the shared intention of kindred spirits to become the spiritual beings that you truly are but have forgotten. You have been way-laid. Now is the time to resurrect the commitment of the soul and spirit and to BE, to be in your core, all that you truly are, a being of love and light. Join with the Creative Forces of the Universe as you seek to join your thought with the Thought of the Divine Being within, the God within, the Creative Spirit of Being. Be all that you are.

As you go through your day, be aware in the minutiae of the moments of life, of the ethical values that you wish to live. Listen to your soul and spirit speaking to you. Listen to the words of love, and then BE them in your actions, in your thoughts, in what you DO. You are spirit. Now BE the spirit that you ARE.

In time, you will see the kingdom of “heaven” as heaven is the loving spirit within you that connects you to the Universal Consciousness of Love. These relationships of love are showing you that you ARE love and that you can BE love. Remember your commitment to serve the beings of the Earth – to share knowledge, and to be a beacon, part of the beacon of the evolved consciousnesses on Earth who together are committed to shining a light on All that Is, so that the mass consciousness of Earth can be changed. This is needed. Earth must be healed. You are part of the healing energy, you and these friends who are sharing the journey with you. Respect, value, appreciate these friends as together you create a higher energy than any of you singularly feels the power to do. “Wherever two or more of you are gathered in my name, there is love.” Be this love. Honor your friendships. Enjoy life. Share in the physical joys that are meaningful to you and that bring you pleasure. Life is about joy. Make it so!

Mon, Jun 30, 2008, 7:23 PM

Dear guardian angels, this business with P is weighing on me. I care for him so deeply and yet I know in my heart that ultimately we are not meant to be together as a couple. But even though I know this, I’m having a hard time parting ways with him. I want him in my life – I enjoy our friendship and our unity, but I feel that it is right to be honest now that my interests are moving elsewhere. But I don’t want to hurt him and I don’t want to lose him. I feel so confused again. I’m slipping back into depression about it I guess – my clear thinking is not present. What is the truth of my relationship with P? What is the best action?

There are many thoughts and many issues in the questions that you have asked, but first let us say that all will be well. You are fretting but you are really fretting yourself. You are up against the veil of the ego beliefs and the ego is trying to hold you sway so that you do not think in the penetrating and illuminating way that the spirit is wanting to do. To allow the spirit free reign to be heard in your mind – and to follow the best advice of your spirit – the inner and higher guidance – this is what you truly want to do.

So the challenge is to find that spirit voice and to listen. That is what you are doing here. You have found as you have been conducting these spirit communications for the last half year that the voice of the spirit is kind and good and wise and knowing, and that it reaches into the heart of you and pulls the goodness from within.

And also the spirit is tied to the Universal knowing that all men – all humans – are privy to.

So this suggests to you, and rightly so, that P, too, is reaching into the heart of his own heart and trying to assess what is afoot between you. He, too, wonders what your truth is, and what his own truth is.

You see, this relationship between you has been an adventure in discovering your truth and acknowledging your truth and living your truth. What greater, higher purpose can two people share than this, other than the adventure of discovering the love within, which is also truly a part of what you and P are doing.

So you can safely let go of the fears that say that P will be hurt. There is within the spirit no hurt when the words of love and truth are spoken.

Now, words sometimes are difficult for the ego to hear, but the words heard by the spirit are always understood on a spirit level and are embraced and appreciated.

So have faith that P will know within his spirit, as he does already know within his spirit, what the truth of your relationship is. It is only for your physical ego selves to acknowledge this -fully, and to share in the new discoveries that will come about as a result.

So perhaps you have a fear of death. The fear of death is manifested in all manner in our lives, not just fear of a physical death, of dying, but of things dying: relationships, partnerships, things we own, things we think we own but perhaps do not truly own – acquisitions. We can be afraid of losing a job, losing someone’s love, losing our mobility, losing our health. These can all be translated into a fear of dying because they all signify loss, permanent loss in our minds.

But truly there is no loss in the spiritual kingdom. There can only be loss in the physical world. And so as we connect ourselves, anchor ourselves, encumber ourselves in the physical world, we become attached to our encumbrances, and we fear that if we lose them we will lose who we are, or we will lose our security, or we will lose our identity or our livelihood or our connection to the physical world.

Believe me when I say that there is no connection to the physical world other than the connection that you in your chemical consciousness deem there to be. This is to say that all connections on the earth, in the physical sphere, are electromagnetic, chemical connections that we create as a higher universal mana expressing its power of creation.

So you see, this idea of letting go and allowing life to be all that it can be is one of perception. You ARE your thinking. And as you perceive, you create, and as you create, you reinforce that which you believe.

This is the “magic,” the equation of creation. Think and bring to life. Think and create. Think and BE. You are that which your mind directs you to be.

So think about this concept in the context of P. What do you want to create with him? Can you articulate this?

Yes, I would like to articulate it. I would like to create with P a deeply caring, trusting, reverent friendship. I would like it to be active. I would like it to be full in our minds. I would like to honor it on a regular basis and keep it alive through our communication and through the gifts that we exchange and through our mutual appreciation of one another. I want him to be in my life as a special, kindred spirit who I love but who I accept as a friend who will, if it is his plan, find another lover someday who will give him what he truly seeks, the fullness of an intimate partnership. I treasure him. I want to share more. But I also want my freedom to explore another relationship, an intimate relationship. I hope that he will understand my need to be free to explore these possibilities.

It is good that you have defined this for yourself. Sometimes it is hard to put in words the feelings that swim within the mind. So this is good.

Now, to bring about the changes that will need to take place in order for your vision to manifest, you will need to articulate your vision to P. You can speak to him softly and gently and assure him of your intentions, your commitment to remain in his life, to sanctify the friendship with a bond of trust and commitment to serve each other’s vision of possibility.

It may be that for starters P may be reluctant to share your vision or present his own. But in his heart his vision is clear and becoming clearer. And as you both begin to share, this will open up new realms of understanding.

Now, there is the issue of truth that you must both speak of and acknowledge. Truth is one of the highest ethical values, and it is of paramount importance that you both understand its value and its meaning in cementing the bond that you seek to preserve and develop. There can be no untruth if a soul is to grow and prosper in the soul and spirit realm. You cannot say one thing and do another. You cannot hide something in the shadows. You cannot omit one thing and illuminate another. Truth is the spiritual brightness and openness of the soul that knows no blackness or grey, no boundaries. If there is grey or if there is a boundary, then the truth is relative, and it loses its potency.

So it is important that you fully disclose all to P, or rather all that you are comfortable disclosing at this time, and move forward on the path of truth as a shared pursuit. For each of you, the challenge of truth is real, but it is a challenge so very worthy of pursuing because it separates your intentions from baser intentions of sharing in friendship. To share friendship IN TRUTH, this brings the spirit, the truth of spirit and all that is spirit into your midst, and allows it to flourish.

How do we seek truth and share truth? By being our word. In the beginning was the word. And all that was swam in the sea of thought, and the thought was the Word, the eternal Logos, the eternal, all encompassing Thought of the Creative Spirit that externally is known as God but internally is known as the Great Spirit, the True Spirit, the One Spirit, the Godhead, the God Self, the King of Kings and Queen of Queens, the Highest Higher Self, the One. Let it Be.

There are many words for the Love and Truth and Equality of Self, but all boil down to one principle: we are one as the family of man, and as we do unto the least of this family, we do unto ourselves on every level. Our highest level is our Godself, our connection to the All That Is, the Heavenly Spirit.

So, BE truth and BE love and show this in all that you do with P, so that you may elevate yourselves to the level where your ethics are unimpeachable and where your mutual appreciation will be intact always, in all ways.

P is thinking of you. His heart is with you, as yours is with him. Trust this, know this. Be the truth and the love in action. Speak from your heart, and respect and value P as he speaks from his. Share in openness. Speak truth.

Do not be afraid but trust that you are both spirit consciousness in action and there is never loss as long as you honor the spirit that you are.

Be your spirit and share this with P and honor his spirit. Trust him. Know that all will be well.

Mon, Jun 09, 2008, 8:23 PM

Dear angels, I feel sad again tonight, emotional. P and I talked on the phone. It was very hard speaking, knowing that my words and thoughts would be heart-wrenching to us both. I did not convey any excitement about a bright future but I know we both feel much love in our hearts. How can I know what is the truth of my heart? I love him and yet I feel we would ultimately part ways. I don’t want to part ways anymore, with anyone. I don’t want to say goodbye.

In the physical world, the laws that each of you is subject to are the physical laws of nature. Life comes, life seems to go, people come and people go. The seasons change, all changes. Life is filled with change and this is the way that life was designed so that each and every soul on Earth, each and every being of light would better understand with each minute or each grand change that there is no such thing as permanence in the physical world, but that the soul and spirit are forever.

You have this opportunity with P to better understand what your life is made of, what your thoughts and feelings are, what you want, what you don’t want. Look into the heart of P and see the beauty that is within him. P is indeed a piece of your heart. You see within him the gentleness of spirit, the kindness, the commitment to teaching, the love of his family, the beauty of his appreciation of nature, his commitment to making the world a better place one person at a time. You see within him the stamina on the court, the desire to help shape the people he works with – the youth – into beings of greater character, to take their natural inclinations and develop them as speaks to the passion within each of them. These are some of the many gifts that P has and that you see within him.

But you can see these beauties and appreciate them without having to hold them. You see, P is a free man, as are all men, all people. There is no “holding” of another being save the holding that we may perceive within our own egotistical intentions. Have you desired to control P, to control his thinking or his emotions? Have you desired to change who he is on any level, and shape him to better fit your concept of who you feel he might be so as to better serve your needs?

If you answered yes to any of these questions, then you can see that you are looking at P at least on some levels through a lens of the ego, which is the lens of fear.

Now, you have been looking at your fear beliefs, and you have seen that – like with all humans – these beliefs are myriad. They are as plentiful and the stars in the sky. And at times they are as bright. Others, thank goodness, are a fading and as transient as shooting stars.

This is to say that you are about change. You are looking at your fear beliefs and you are pulling them into the light and you are discarding them one by one. This is an eternal task, that is, within the physical sphere of Earth, which is the planet of healing and cleansing, your purpose is to shed your fears and to remember the being of light that you fundamentally are. You are on an eternal path to soul and spirit expansion, and in time, or in the eternal span of your being, you will rejoin the Creator in the consciousness that you focus your being upon, such that you will BE, in all your facets, in all your glory, in all your BEING, the totality of the Creative Energy that the Creator is, and you will be ONE with the Creator.

But this is an eternal process, one that did not begin yesterday or a lifetime ago, but uncounted years ago, when there was no physical domain of any sort, when you were just thoughtform, and all was a sea of thought of the Creator.

You see, there is a grand task that you are in the midst of accomplishing: the task of opening up your mind, expanding your mind to the awareness of the magnificence of your soul and spirit. You are becoming truly aware that you have spirit energy, and that it is guiding you in each and every moment to become, to BE, all that you are within.

Without, you are a physical being. Within, you are a soul and spirit of grand dimension. And it is this soul and spirit that you speak with and that speaks with you in these moments of your angel communication.

Now, P is another being of light that shares with you the divine purpose of coming to better understand his fears. He has been adrift somewhat in recent years in the hold of his professional focus. And this focus has brought him much satisfaction but it has also given him opportunity to put aside, for a time, a focus on the expansion of his deeper mind, his awareness of his soul and spirit.

And so, as you have joined together in this time with P you have both stimulated the “chakras” as it were, the energy centers of your beings, to think more about what you want in the deeper senses and what you are willing to do to get there.

For each of you, the goals are somewhat different. No judgment should be had here. Do not judge the differences. They are what they are and there can be nothing but appreciation for the beauty of the choices that each of you has made that has brought to you in your lives the elements of joy and appreciation. You both have tremendous appreciation for the many joyful elements of your lives.

But you have come together for the mutual sharing and illuminating that would be done when souls touch souls and spirits touch spirits. There is electricity. There is magnetism. There is knowing. There is expansion. There is light. There is joy. And at times, on the physical level, there can be sadness when the physical awarenesses do not necessarily match the soul and spirit knowings.

This is to say that you and P have come together in the physical world to provide your soul and spirit with a set of experiences that would trigger you to gain measures of soul and spirit growth. But soul and spirit growth can be perceived by the physical being as painful, at times, when the lesson that triggers the pain is not acknowledged.

So here is your opportunity to acknowledge what your lessons are with P.

With P, your lessons have been to let go of attachment to the physical; to appreciate the love that a soul gives to you unconditionally; to accept the gift of love without feeling that you must own the gift or the giver; to speak openly and cheerfully; to not blame; to be loving; and to communicate with heartfulness but not with control.

For P, we will just say that his lessons are, like for all people, unique and individual to his own self. It is not important to identify them here. It is important, though, to know that P cares for you deeply in his heart and that his commitment to you as a soul and spirit is grand and unconditional and genuinely extended through the generous spirit and kindness that is, indeed, quintessential to the soul and spirit of PP.

Look into the face of P and see a kindred spirit who cares for you, loves you, and knows that your heart is open to him in free reciprocity. He knows that you love him. And herein lies the bond, the eternal bond that you share. He is one with you, as you are with him, for the duration of your time as souls and spirits walking the Earth. Rejoice in this relationship. It is not unique, but it is divine and blessed in its truth.

Now, you are each set with the task of understanding these truths and integrating them into your lives. How best might you do this? You can do this by continuing to speak openly and freely with each other. Keep your lines of communication open because within you speak to one another, so let the world, the physical world be a true representation of what moves within you both.

And as you speak, remind one another that you care deeply and that your commitment to remain true friends is a commitment you intend to honor. What is a friend? A Friend is a Universal relationship of love, truth, equality, independence, and freedom, with courage and conviction in each friend to maintain the relationship despite the trials or the dramas that may arise. A friend in need is a friend pure and simple. We each need a friend and therefore to be a friend is to honor the simple need that each of us has, as an evolving, loving being, to connect with a special someone.

Remember also that times will arise when your friendship may be challenged, and it is at these times that you may show one another, either through your actions or your words or both, that you intend to stay in the realm of protecting the friendship. There is joy in knowing that a relationship remains anchored in the firm ground of faith. Trust one another. Know that all will be well.

Reach out to P and share with him your soul commitment to him. Help him to understand, as you help yourself to understand, that love is realized through commitment to sharing. And whether or not the sharing has a physical counterpart, it can still be sharing of great magnitude. You have the opportunity to share deeply with P. It is a blessing to share on this level with him. Honor, respect, and value this gift that he has given to you. And as you honor his gift, you give him a tandem gift: the gift of your love and respect and appreciation.

Sleep gently, knowing that your friendship with P is true in your heart, and that his is true, and that your time of togetherness, even as it may change in its physical expression, can indeed grow on a soul and spirit level. Tonight you have expressed your desire for change. Now see where the change will take you both. See what you can preserve. See what you can develop. See what you can grow.

When you left P's house in Vermont, he gave you a handful of seeds, and he asked you to plant these seeds with him. He was totally intending for you to understand the symbolism of this act of nurturing and growth. It is critical for your soul and spirit to do the same with him. Give him the seeds within your heart to grow and advance that which is important to you both. And what is always most important is love. Know this and watch the seeds grow.

Logos Archive

It is through the evolution of man that the Universe also advances. We are all One, in love and peace and joy. (082809)

The truest gem is the gem of the golden love within. (030109)

Freedom is the blessed openness of the soul to be all that it wants to be. (060308)

Relationships are the fuel, the fodder for our growth. Without relationships we would be like the oyster in the shell, with the grit of sand around us and with the shell of protection encasing us in a cloistered hall of silence. This is not what we want. We want to be resounding in our joy and in our sharing and in our explorations of ourselves. And it is through relationships that we do this. (052108)

Your mind is the greatest jewel you have ever known. Like a diamond that crystallizes in the earth and grows from the blackest of black to the lightest of light, your mind, too, is forever undergoing transmutation. (050608)

Look and see the beauty of love in the face of sisters. (042808)

To grow and change with love as the abiding and guiding force – this is the hallmark of a good day, a blessed moment, and one that you have the right and the power to live in each and every way. (041808)

As we leave the home each day we acknowledge that our life on earth is about stepping out of known elements into broader terrains in the mission of serving earth and each other and expanding our consciousness. (040608)

For us to embrace open communication is to let go of resistance to our spirit energy, and to allow all that we are to be expressed. (033108)

Your cells have the right to flow freely, your mind has the right to think freely, and you have the right to live your evolution as is perfect for your own soul and spirit. This is freedom – to be who you want to be. (030808)

There are no failures and there are no mistakes. There is only learning. (031208)

Every relationship can be a joy if we perceive it through the eyes of unconditional love. (030408)

Each life that we live is imbued with purpose. There is no life if there is no purpose. You do indeed have a special purpose and so to discover it is to discover yourself. To discover your purpose is to know WHO YOU ARE. (022908)

You are a being of light and therefore the light that you envision is the food that your soul and spirit wants to drink, to eat, to bask in, to breathe. (022608)

Earth has not forgotten her promise to Man. But Man has forgotten his promise to Earth. Now is the time to remember this promise, this legacy, this rich and rewarding union. (020808)

Once we understand that we create our very reality, from inception and conception to death and to life again, eternally, we begin to have respect for the majesty of creation and for the expansiveness of our being. (021208)

Remember that the planets circle the sun. And the sun moves in the sky as does the galaxy and as does our universe. Nothing stays still; all revolves. So these energies and these lives that you share with others – they, too, revolve and evolve, and will come back to a point of connection when the times are right, as the cycles hold their truth. (021508)

The hows and whats are interesting to look at, but always ask why. Within the why is the image and the voice of truth if you allow the truth to seep through the ego and come into the fascinating light of its own divine self. (021708)

Tue, Jun 3, 2008, 8:16 PM

Dear Angels: It’s so easy to forget my inspiration, my ethical values, my focus on being all that I can be. I’ve found myself saying things that are not spiritual. I’ve been thinking fear thoughts, not overwhelmingly but these ways of being seem to insidiously slip back into my life. I resist my spirit energy. Why? How do I regain my spiritual footing?

The behavior of the spirit is the behavior that embraces all the ethical values. To live a spiritual life, one must be free of all fear thoughts, all fear thinking, all fear beliefs, and live from each and every one of the ethical values.

If this sounds like a tall order, it is. But this is also to say that we should not berate ourselves if we are not living spiritually, because to live the essence of spiritual behavior takes a great deal of focus. It takes millions of lifetimes to get to this point. Getting to this point is the purpose of being human. It is our goal as a soul and spirit living in a physical body.

So do not be sad or down on yourself if you have not attained that point. You are at the level of disambiguation, where you are deconstructing the realities around which you have built perceptions. In other words, you are looking at the beliefs within your mind, the fear beliefs, and you are deconstructing them. You are examining them and coming to understand how you have built the perceptions and how you can change them.

Let us examine one such belief. You have the belief that you must have a man in your life in order to be happy. This past weekend you discovered that you do not need to embrace this belief. You discovered that you indeed do not need a man in your life in order to be happy. You discovered that you relate very well to others without a man at your side and that in fact you feel confident and pleased within your own self without the enhancement of an intimate relationship.

This is not to say that having a man in your life, at your side, is not a good thing or a welcome thing. It can and indeed is, if it is the right person. But you discovered that your perceived need is just that: perceived. You can change your perception and therefore change the circumstances of your life in order to be happier.

To release attachments is part of the disambiguation process, part of letting go. You see, there is nothing in this world that we truly need as a physical entity other than pure water, pure air, and pure food. Love is a necessity of the soul and spirit, and joy and peace are necessities, elements of the soul and spirit. But insofar as physical need is concerned, you only need these elements that sustain the physical body. To release attachment to all else is a freeing thing, and by freeing your mind of the attachments, you allow the energy of the universe to flow more freely in and out of your energy field. You open yourself to all that is to become a part of you and your life.

(Jun 5, 2008, 10:15 PM)
Now, your pursuit in writing these “angel writings” is to open yourself to all that is and to become more and more the being that you are at your core. You are seeking to find the center of self, the core of self, that is love, truth and equality. These are the essential ethical values of the spirit. These values define the infiniteness of you as a soul and spirit because you are a part of all that is, and as you live your ethical values you create a bridge to all that is.

Think about the elements of your life that you wish to change. Do you wish to be more honest, more open, more real, more true, more abiding, more faithful, more communicative, more loyal, more peaceful, more helpful, more caring, more intact and integrated as an ethical being? To be all of these things – to hold them within a focal point of being – this is a true test of wherewithal and intention. As you have the intention of change, and as you combine this intention with knowledge and will, you become more of what you think about.

So think about the changes that you wish to have. Hold them in the forefront of your mind. Make a list. Remind yourself of the items on your list. Share your list with others. Swim in the thoughts on your list and believe that you are capable of change. Know that as a human being, your very being is the energy of change. You see, when you as thoughtforms began to create (just as your Creator created YOU), you showed yourselves what CHANGE is. Change is the state of flux within which all of the Universe resides. There is no element of the Universe that is not subject to change. Even the energy of the Creator is the energy of change. All within and without grows, expands, changes, mutates, transforms, becomes more, breathes in and out and transmutes. The very Universe within which we live is the most radical and profound example of change. The Big Bang was change. You are an element of the Big Bang, and as such – as a being created within the energy of change – you will constantly and eternally change.

So do not be afraid to change. Embrace change as the energy of normalcy. Understand that finding joy is finding change. Grow, expand and allow change to gracefully take place.

In your life, you are looking at changing a way of thinking about your attachment to having a man in your life. You are wondering how you might describe this new-found feeling of freedom to P. Understand that P, too, has a belief that he is working on, many beliefs, that bring him into his relationship with you. But his needs and his beliefs should not concern you, that is, you may care about them but insofar as your lessons go, your lessons are unique to you and germane to you and to your thinking processes at this time. So have compassion for P and for yourself, but do not fall into the trap of taking on his lessons as your own. With respect to the changes afoot for you, you will want to address with him those that are important to you, and at the same time ask him to share those that are important to him, so that you might work together to solve the riddle of how to emerge from an intimate relationship into a relationship that can still be viable without being intimate.

This is a challenge because feelings and sensitivities can be fragile. When emotions are concerned it is good to be graceful and gentle. Speak from the heart. Speak lovingly and caringly for the soul and spirit that is P. You and P have shared time together in many relationships in many lifetimes. There is a familiarity that you can put to use when you speak with him. He will understand your meaning because he is in tune with you. He may hesitate but he will know within. And as you trust that he knows within, you may share the deepest part of your heart with him so that he hears the truth of your words and the truth of your heart.

Speak of the love that you have for him. Speak of your goals. Speak of your wishes for a relationship. Speak of what you want, not of what he lacks, but of what you seek, with the understanding that what is important to you is worthy of your time and energy. So what is it that you seek? The fullness of a relationship? The ease of connecting? The sharing of personality traits, the general demeanor, the exuberance, the artistry, the focus on design and creation, the joy of sharing on a daily and hourly basis. These are not elements that you would find with P at this time because of the focuses that he has in his life. This is what we have been saying, but you are finding the physical truths that uphold the thoughts you've revealed on paper. This is good. This validates your spirit inspiration and shows you that you can indeed trust what your mind and emotions have been showing you.

Now, rest assured that P is aware of these energy streams. He is, as we have also said, a great being with tremendous depth and insight. In fact, these are the energies that draw you to him and that form a magnetic bond between you. But as there are other elements of equal and significant weight, you must weigh them all and understand that it is fortuitous at this time to forge a new relationship that will serve your mutual needs in a more fruitful way.

Your time with P has been a healing, a healing of great proportion in sync with the need that you had for his cooperation with your soul and spirit on a soul and spirit level. P has touched your soul, as you have his, and as such you are joined in a forever bond that does not depend upon physical proximity to be sustained.

But as you do indeed seek a relationship in the physical world, your parting with P will allow you more leverage, more room, more expanded energy domains to find and create the kind of relationship that you seek to bring to maximum fruition.

Remember again that your love of self is the greatest love that you will find. Your loving relationship with your soul and spirit and physical ego self will be the relationship that brings you comfort and joy and peace as no other can. So focus on the love of self, knowing that all good will be magnetized to this energy.

P in his heart kisses you goodbye, as he fully understands what the challenges are for him ahead, and for you, too. You have both joined during this time of your togetherness to draw more closely into your conscious awareness the understanding of what your challenges are in finding happiness and peace and joy. For each of you there are different lessons and yet some are shared. Loving self is always and ever the challenge that each human being may count as the tallest order, the greatest order. Love self and your love will extend to each other.

Be kind, as you are; be kinder, as you can be. Reach out to others and let the heart flow freely to share in the spirit of true friendship, true appreciation, true love. All good comes of this energy.

Be loyal; be loyal to loyalty, in the words of Josiah Royce. Have loyalty to the very concept of loyalty so that you breathe the spectrum of ethical values even in your sleep. Accord each other and accord your own selves the highest degree of respect, value, appreciation, faith, truth and independence. Know in your hearts that as souls and spirits you are free – free of need, free of fear, free of entrapment within the physical. But know that as a human, you are finding ways to live the love of your soul and spirit in the physical world.

You and P have shared this pursuit and will continue to share it as you steadily plough the fields of understanding and growth in your lives. You have shared in the loftiest of pursuits, even if these pursuits are consciously unacknowledged: you share the goal of self discovery and mind expansion. To have shared this on any level with any human is a gift; to share it as you and P have, with love and enthusiasm for the being of the other – this is one of the greatest gifts on earth. Be proud that you have shared and be firm in your pledge to continue to share, even as your time of intimacy takes a turn into something less physical. This by no means should be perceived as loss, but should be perceived as gain, for you have learned the lesson of intimate attachment, and are learning, through this time with each other, to let it go.

This, indeed, is part of the disambiguation process. Be delighted that you and P share in this way.

We will be with you as you find the courage to speak openly and readily and excitedly with P. And we will be with P as his heart, as well, is set free once again. Freedom is the blessed openness of the soul to be all that it wants to be. Direct your mind into the brightness of the future, and allow your hearts to care for one another because this is the truth of your souls.

Be in peace, share love, be love.

Good night.

Wed, May 21, 2008, 7:59 PM

Dear Angels: I am so glad to be with you here, now. Today was a doozie. I was emotionally shaken because I feared I had done something that would bring loss to me, the loss of someone dear to me, my friend P. He is much more than a friend but in my heart I feel the truth of our friendship, and I was sad that I didn’t honor it. I wished I could take back my communication, but still, it brought good. We talked tonight and he listened to me and he spoke openly and heartfully. I'm very glad that we’re on a good path again. But I feel some fears are still with me, some fear beliefs that I have worked hard to shed. I know I need to be patient, and in truth I’m excited about my growth and change and especially how this wonderful connection with you and with JM and others has fueled my recent growth and given me such impetus to be all that I can be. So this event with P – it gives me all the more inspiration and motivation and enthusiasm to change, to keep climbing up that ladder of goodness. I learned a powerful few lessons today: to speak my truth quietly and clearly, to be respectful of another person’s feelings, and to think, think, think before I speak, and most of all to be aware of my ego voice and to let it gently disappear. So – will you tell me about today, about tonight, about tomorrow, about me and my growth and my change and my love? I feel so much love and I want to share it widely.

L, it is good that you are examining all these aspects of your day and of your thoughts and of your relationships. You see, relationships are the fuel, the fodder for our growth. Without relationships we would be like the oyster in the shell, with the grit of sand around us and with the shell of protection encasing us in a cloistered hall of silence. This is not what we want. We want to be resounding in our joy and in our sharing and in our explorations of ourselves. And it is through relationships that we do this because relationships are for us a divine mirror of ourselves. In the face of each other person, we see the face of self.

So today in the event with P you were more clearly able to see your thoughts. If you had not had P as part of this scenario, the thoughts of your mind would have wafted into the hinterlands. But because you value your relationship with him, because his presence means a great deal to you, you were forced, by virtue of the impending drama, to examine your thoughts for the impact that they would have. You did not mean to hurt P. You only meant to communicate what you were feeling.

But if we do not stop to examine what we are feeling – to thoroughly examine it before we speak or hit the send button – then we can indeed jeopardize a relationship. In the physical world relationships can be fragile. Many walk on delicate ground. Some people have thicker skin. And some issues mean little to some people whereas the same issues can mean more to others. But in each and every communication there is meaning, whether or not we recognize it.

So today there was a drama with you and P. And you are both to be commended for having the courage and the desire to learn from it and to grow from it. This is a testament to the love that you share – and when we say love we refer to the love that is inherent in the human heart: the love of caring, the love that is expressed in pure friendship, the love that means that two people share values and the joy of connection. Love is indeed a multifaceted element of us, but it is truly the essence of who you are; and to express your essence in any way – especially to someone dear to you – this is a great gift of sharing and it is always a healing, that is, it truly allows the blood to flow more freely within the body and within the mind, and the neurons of your entire nervous system are gracefully touched and freed. Love is the salve that heals all and carries all goodness in its path.

Now, with P you have felt a bit of a struggle at times, or let us say confusion. You have wondered what his role is in your life. You have wondered how much energy you should put into the relationship. You have wondered how long and how fully you might indulge this relationship – “indulge” because you felt some degree of resign that it cannot be more than what it is because of the distance geographically.

But you must understand that your life is what you make of it, and there are no impediments in this world save the impediments that you design for yourself. There is truly no limit to what you can create.

The words that come from your fingertips as you have explored your relationship with P are not words from on high, per se, but words from your soul and spirit, words from your core. Your words are YOU; you are soul and spirit. You are the inspiration and the energy of your divine connection, and so believe in your inspiration and know that it is a part of you. We, as a part of your spirit energy, are not separate from you, but we are part of you and we become you and your consciousness, as you become us and our consciousness, and as you and as we desire this connection. We are at all times connected, and yet we await your desire to connect and your willingness to acknowledge the oneness that we are. You are spirit, you are soul, and you are a physical entity with divine spiritual sensory awareness. Wake, become awakened, and we together fulfill the promise of divine consciousness.

So as you have been exploring your relationship with P, you have been listening to the words of your heart, and to some degree the words of your ego as you hang on to fear beliefs – which are normal and totally a part of the human path of existence. It is through our fears that we discover what we don’t want and ultimately who we are. We are not our fears. We are in truth - in absolute truth - the absence of fear.

But you have given in to fears so that you will see, within each fractal image of thought, a trace of the thinking processes that define your daily life. To lose your fears is to redefine yourself and your world. You are looking for this redefinition. You are looking emphatically and gloriously and you have found a million gems. Each word that you write is a gem of discovery. Keep writing. It serves you well.

Now, before you is the challenge of understanding your role with P and his role with you. There are no definitives with this. You must understand that all relationships under the sun are subject to growth and change. You are energy. You are open, by virtue of who you are, to change. So you may do well to see your relationship with Paul in this same light. P is indeed a being of light. He is a guiding light to many and he inspires as he lives because he lives with inspiration and courage and an honesty and commitment to life and to change, which gives pulse to change in others. He can guide you and he can and has and will, if you allow the energy to flow, bring many gifts to you.

What do you want? It may not serve you to seek to define, but rather to seek to know the heart. Within the heart the blood flows, and within the heart of a relationship the blood of love and light flow so as to bring new understandings. You see, you and P in many respects are looking to understand yourselves, and you see much in the face of the other that you wish to see in self. In P, you see courage, you see strength, you see his dignity and his calm demeanor, and yet also his exuberance and his heartfulness and perhaps best of all his warmth and openness. He does feel ever warmly toward you and this is a great gift from a great man. As you accept this gift, you honor the giving nature of P.

And in you, P sees the light of sharing, the joy of sharing, the excitement of your movement, the gracefulness that you exude, your quick and clever mind, and your symmetry. He appreciates your commitment to sharing and your desire to be open with him. He appreciates most of all the color and the kindness of you. As you share beauty with him, this brings to him an awareness – a greater awareness - of his own beauty, and this, too, is a gift.

So with each of you there is a presentation of many gifts as you choose to share them.

Now, it may be time to let go of your need to define this relationship. It may be time to just let it be what it wants to be. Trust that P cares for you. Believe that love is not only afoot but is bountiful in your hearts and in your minds not just for each other but for life and for living. As you can share these facets of love, this will bring happiness and a presence of mind that is absent of fear beliefs and judgments, but rather present with all the good things that come with being open to all that is.

You are both children of “God” – children of the Creative Energy that created you; and as you acknowledge this and understand how great you are by virtue of this relationship to your Creator, you fulfill a destiny that brings light and vivid color to your lives.

So allow your time with P to breathe on its own accord, without stricture, without a holding or restraint. Allow the fullness of air, of light, to come into your hearts. Know that there are no limits. Trust that you are both learning. Have faith that your lessons are blessed and needed and perfect for each of you. You are different people and yet you share in this bond, this sacred bond of caring and reverence for your lives, for the people in your lives, for your families, for the children in your families. These appreciations imbue you both with a lightness of heart and a beauty that shines for all to see.

Take heart in knowing that all is as it should be at this time and that your future is an open book. Nothing is preordained; nothing is set in stone. You have freedom of choice, will and intention. These are gifts from the Creator, and if you use them wisely, with love, truth and equality, you will bless your own selves with the most amazing gifts you have ever known.

Remember that the greatest gift of all is the love of self. As you shower your own self with love, you give this gift to each and every person you encounter. Give this to P, and your gift will be returned many times over.

Know that we are with you and that we send you love in each and every moment.

Good night.

Fri, May 16, 2008, 4:59 AM

Good morning, angels, higher self: Erica shared a few things with me last night about how A’s mom, L, is feeling about their relationship. I am concerned about L. I care for her deeply as a friend and I feel that she is suffering. It seems that she is resisting accepting A and hence accepting herself. Is there anything I can do to help?

Yes, there is much that you can do to help. First of all, it is wise to understand the value of non-interference. A and her mother have a unique relationship that speaks to the karma of both of them in understanding their own selves. Each of them has chosen to enter this world and their relationship of mother and daughter because of the lessons and the learnings that would be present.

For each of them – L and A, the lessons are somewhat different, and indeed they are manifold, as lessons are for each of us in this world. But for A and L, one of the main lessons is the lesson of acceptance.

You see, our paths as human beings are colorful and richly decorated with the lessons that are unique to us as a soul. No one can totally walk in our shoes; and no one should because we all have our own “walk with God” – a walk with the GOOD within us that we are trying to gain. We are each trying to gain, through the experiential learning of life, about the good within us.

So A and L are learning this with each other. Neither of them is fully prepared at this time, though, to accept the choices that the other has made. L is not accepting A for her choices in life, and A is not accepting her mother for the choices that L makes.

You see, there is the reflective mirror here for both of them. Behold in the face of a stranger or in the face of a loved one the image of self.

In you, in each of you, you have the power to behold the face of the stars, of the universe, of all that is. You have the power to see love. You have the power to see all good. But you must first see this in self. You must first look within and mine for all the gold and all the goodness that is inherent in you as a human being. You ARE all that is. You are a fractal pattern of the thinking of the Creator, therefore you ARE the creator, you are A creator in the mind and in the essence of energy that the Creator bestowed you with.

So you may exercise this power of creation in any way you please. A and her mother are in the midst of exercising their powers of creation. They are learning, through the experience of being in life together, what each of them wants and does not want.

This lesson that they are living at this time – the lesson of personal acceptance (and it is, truly, a matter of accepting self) is a profound one because it gets at the heart of understanding who we are as human beings. As human beings, we are spirit learning to be human. We are at our core a thoughtform of the Creator. We live in the energy of creation and creative power. We have the free choice, free will and free intention to choose whatever thinking we want and whatever life experiences we want.

So when we accept that all of life is our own choice – down to the minutiae of our experiences – then we begin to see that we can change our life and all that we feel deep inside, by changing our thinking.

The mind is our greatest ally if we partner the mind with the loving emotions of happiness, joy, passion for life and the ecstasy of joining our thought with the thought of the Creator. We have the power to do this. What is it that holds us back? It is fear. As we have lived life after life for countless millennia upon the face of the earth, we have brought unto ourselves myriad faces of fear – fear BELIEFS about the nature of reality.

We have looked at fears in many ways as we have studied ourselves and tried to understand who we are. But if we only look external to self – into the sky when we see the thunder and the rain, or into the eyes of another in anger – and feel fear, then we do not see what we have the right and the ability to see within us, internal to us: the face of love.

As we look within ourselves and understand that we are a creative thoughtform of the Creator, we begin to see that our fears are vapid. They are our own manufactured creations and as such they are powerless. And yet we give them power.

So for L and A, perhaps the greatest salve for the lack of acceptance that each is feeling for the other at this time is the salve of beginning to look within and seeing the beauty of self.

Now, for each of these people, there is much beauty to behold. For L there is the tremendous mind, there is the heart of caring for friends, there is the nurturing spirit that draws others to her as she expresses joy and good will into the lives of the people she encounters in her daily living. There is indeed a light that shines about L.

For A, there is the joie de vivre that is also a spark that draws others to her. She has a gaity and a kindness and an acceptance for others that is warm and joyful. Her playfulness and her quest for love and beauty is a joy to behold.

For both, though, L and A, there is the desire within each to accept the other, and in this we can see that each desires to accept self. To accept self is to accept that we ARE love. To accept our own love is to begin to heal the wounds that keep us in the perception that we do not love others, or that we must change how another thinks, or that we have the power to change another. Believe me when I tell you that none of us has the power to change another. It is a foolhardy belief to think that any of us – through murder, manipulation, control, anger, suffering or any method at all – can change another being. We simply cannot. We can only take their breath away as we inject fear. Or we can share the light of our heart; and as another is willing to see that light, this, in turn, is where any positive change begins. SEE THE LIGHT in the face of a stranger, or in the face of a loved one, and this indeed changes self and has the power to help the other see their own light and gain some momentum in changing self.

Now, for you in dealing with L and A, just be the loving person that you are in their presence. If a moment presents itself in which you might speak with either of them, you may wish to take advantage of that moment. But perhaps at this time it would be indelicate to ask to speak with L. L has her own path and her own personal goals, and these are unique to her and they will be satisfied in time. At her own time she will seek you out and she will come to a higher understanding. But for her, the lessons are for her to discover and for her to work through.

For A, you have more of an opportunity to share because you see her more often. You are in her presence and so your energy of acceptance of Erica is a guiding light to her. She feels your energy of love and acceptance and equality, and from this she feels more comfortable. She sees what she wants to have, and it brings her a sense of comfort and joy. And her father, too, brings this to her daily life. It is a gift for A to be in the energy of acceptance. It is an inspiration to her and helps her better understand what it is that she seeks in self and in her mother and in the world.

For you to wish to see the healing in these two people that you hold in your heart – this is in an of itself is a gift because it brings within you the energy of compassion and sharing and love. Continue to feel these emotions of caring because they are the essence of love; they are pieces of love, and as we feel them for someone else, we indeed feel them for our own self.

Ultimately, all healing that is done is the healing of self. There is no external healing, that is, we cannot heal another. We can only heal ourselves and help inspire the desire for healing in another human. To desire to share the love and the spirit energy of self with another – this is the essence of the reason why we are on Planet Earth with one another. We see in the face of others the face of self, and through this mirror we can find inspiration to be all that we are.

The Creator gave to each of us the power of love and the power of creation and the power to Be all that we are. So as each of us lives in the energy of love, we give rise to the energy of creativity, which is expressed in the essence of our being. We ARE all that is, and as we recognize this tremendous relationship that we have not only with each other as human beings, but with the Earth and the Universe and All That Is, we BECOME a greater expressive part of All That Is. And this is the truest healing that any of us can experience.

Become Yourself. Be All That Is. Be love and share love and hope for your own changes that bring you into the fold of love and expand you in the Universal flow of love. This is true healing and it is within your power to heal on this highest level of magnitude.

Send love and light to L and A and trust that they, too, are expanding in their own love and light, and through their unique relationship with each other they are, piece by piece, finding their way in discovering the divinity of self. This is a blessed experience and one to be respected and cherished.

Fri, May 09, 2008, 6:19 PM

Dear angels and my higher self: Tonight I’d like to explore the ethical value of patience. It seems that patience is a big lesson for me. I tend to be quite impatient – wanting what I want when I want it and feeling perturbed or agitated if I don’t have it. Can you guide me in gaining more patience and in understanding what patience means to me in my personal growth and expansion?

Yes. Let us consider this ethical value of patience. Patience is a quality of our spirit that works in conjunction with multiple other qualities – values – to guide us in living our lives as spiritual beings. To be a spiritual being, one must be focused upon living at high levels of thought, loving emotion and sensory awareness. These are the three aspects of who we are – mind, loving emotions and spirit senses wrapped in a physical body. To live these three aspects of ourselves in the highest level possible – this is to be spiritual. To be spiritual, we must think spiritual thoughts, feel love in our hearts, demonstrate love in our thoughts, words, and actions, and live the refined sensory self that we are at our core.

Now, the ethical values of our spirit are multiple. Patience is a key value because we must be patient with ourselves as we grow and change. We do not grow and change overnight. We do not grow and change only through sleep. We do not grow and change simply by observing other people’s growth and change, although at times we fool ourselves, lull ourselves into thinking that growth and change are easier than they are. Believe me when I tell you that growth and change is an eternal process, and there is never a moment when we arrive at the totality, the essence, the pinnacle of growth.

Even the Creator is growing and changing. This is the Divine Relationship that you have with the Creator. As you are a child of the Creator, your own growth and change gives pulse and meaning and dimension to the growth and change that the Creator experiences.

Growth and change is the behavior of consciousness. As you live your growth and change, your consciousness expands, and thusly does the consciousness of the Creator expand. There is total integration and unity between you as a seed, a child, an aspect of the Creator, and the Creator himself. The Creator gave you the gift of free will, free choice and free intention so that you, as a creative seed, could grow and change according to your own direction, your own choice and will, your own being.

This is an immense responsibility. And in fact personal responsibility itself is another ethical value that is tied to patience. You have a responsibility to be patient with your growth because growth is who you are as a dynamic energy being. Energy by its very nature must grow and change, otherwise it shrinks in proportion, seven relative to seven into infinity, and with it you devolve.

So to have patience with your growth and change is to understand that your path as an evolving consciousness is a path of trial and error, of experimentation, of joy, of sorrow at times, of systematic observation, and of learning about your freedom as a soul and spirit to become “more” than you are.

In truth, you ARE now all that you will ever be. There is no separation from you and the Creator and the Creative Forces of the Universe save the separation that you perceive as you LIMIT your mind with understandings about your ability to grow and change – your very nature and desire to grow and change.

If you look within and remember some of the little thoughts in your mind throughout your life, you will be aware that each and every expansion that you felt in your life – each change – was the result of a choice that you made to live that change. Believe me when I tell you that each and every aspect of your life is indeed a choice that you made to integrate that aspect into your life. To be born, to live, to suffer disease, to feel peace and joy, to marry, to bear children, to work, to live as you live in each and every moment of living, to divorce, to feel pain, to mutate your cells, to meet those people that you meet, to have every encounter, to see the sky, to feel the earth, to drink, the list is endless. Your every moment of living is your choice because YOU are a divine being that has been given 100% power of creation.

This power of creation was not a simple gift. The Creator deliberated for shall we say a very long time in considering what this gift could mean. The Creator is an all-encompassing energy that also defines who you are, and so you, too, as a thoughtform created by the Creator, had a hand in this decision. You ARE the decision. There is no separation between you and the Creator’s choice to give you the power of creation. This power is the essence of you.

Think of yourself as having begun as an atom. The atom joins forces with other atoms and molecules and cells and organs and bodies and families and cultures and societies and worlds and solar systems and galaxies and universes into the folding of those universes into other universes and spitting them out again into multiple, uncountable other atoms, molecules, and cells and on and on. You are infinite and you are connected to all that is. It is an amazing thought. But it is only because you see yourself as finite that you do not embrace this concept of eternal connection and eternal growth and change.

So as you consider this infinite expansiveness, can you see that patience serves you well, and that patience is indeed a critical value to hold as you give yourself, in total grace and total humility, the credence of growing as you see fit throughout eternity?

We can only be patient when we consider that our life is about us, that our goal as a thoughtform of the Creator living in a physical body is to learn to be all that we are and to accept that we have eternity to do it in. This concept is absolutely amazing and truly awesome.

The Creator gave us the power to be a co-creator and to live our gift of creation forever, as we learn who we are.

So take your time in living life. “Smell the roses.” Appreciate Earth. Appreciate all of creation, because all of creation is an aspect of you, your own self; it defines your being.

Be patient with others because they, too, are in the process of discovering themselves. And each and every action in their life is perfect for them, as each and every aspect of your life is perfect for you.

Be patient especially with those you love. They will feel your love through your patience, through your acceptance of them as divine children.

Be patient with Mother Earth. Your earth is the planet of growth and change that you collectively with the human race have chosen for the home that would nurture you and give you life and strength as you cleanse your mind and expand your mind into the infinite levels of awareness that are readily available to you to live and be within.

Be patient with the Universe, and accept that even though you are limited in your physical travel into the Universe at this time, the Universe itself is aware of your presence and watching you grow and change. You are a fractal pattern of Universal energy. It is the energy of the Universe that gives you life.

Be patient with the people that you come in contact with “on the street.” Each being that you encounter is there for a reason, and the reason is to show you either where you have been, where you are, or where you want to go. Each being has infinite lessons to share with you, and if you look at each being with just the simple question of “what may I learn from you, and how may I return this gift,” then you are growing immensely and you will be rewarded with untold gifts of love and appreciation and bounty and abundance. To receive and to give – these are the energies of the Universe. To feel them is a gift in and of itself.

Be patient, above all, with your mind. Your mind is the greatest jewel you have ever known. Like a diamond that crystallizes in the earth and grows from the blackest of black to the lightest of light, your mind, too, is forever undergoing transmutation. As a soul, you are mind and emotions. But your emotions are already complete. But your mind began as a vessel to be filled. And as you fill your mind with knowledge and wisdom all tempered with love, you transmute your soul into the spirit energy that is your essence. Your life is about the expansion of your mind so that you grow into a conscious awareness of your spirit.

So be patient with this mind expansion. You have eternity to expand. And the joy of this journey is that you are joined with other souls and spirits who are forever by your side, supporting you in your growth and change – in your learning to live your life in newer and more expansive ways, more loving ways. The joy of sharing this journey is the joy of being a soul and spirit walking forever through space and time to be all that you are. It is a magnificent journey, and if you are patient, you will all the more appreciate the nuances of your growth and change, and all the more be joyful in how they manifest.

Your joy, your love, your being are to be celebrated. Grow and change in patience, and understand that your life is truly your own gift to yourself.

Wed, May 7, 2008, 5:52 PM

Dear Higher Self: Today I've been a bit blue. My time with P may be coming to an end. I care deeply for him but some pieces are missing. I want to have an enduring, encompassing relationship with someone. I see others in viable and loving relationships and I wonder why I have not yet created this. I know I need to be patient. But I feel impatient.

L, there is much to be grateful for and happy for in the creations of your life. You have led and you lead a very happy life! Do not despair. Patience is a virtue and it is not a simple ethical value to hold, and yet you are working on this value and in time you will feel that you have a firm foothold in this vein.

Now, with respect to P, you have been exploring this relationship for some time and it has produced many good things for you. You have found much pleasure and much gain. And things are not over. There is still more to explore with P, and he is eager to explore with you. But you must make some decisions first: What are you willing to give in your life in order to keep the relationship active and viable? It is not that you must sacrifice, but you have only so much time and certain resources, and you must work with these. Also, there is the emotional cost of the relationship if it is not producing the emotions that you want it to at every juncture. This must be examined.

You must also realize that time is of the essence in creating some of the other greater goals that you have. You have work to do with the IMS, and they need your assistance. And you have work to sink into at your job. And you still have the greater goal of creating a relationship of maximum potential.

Is P that relationship of maximum potential? You can tell if you look at some of these other tasks that are before you, and see how P may fit into them. Can he help you? Is he interested in these aspects of your life? Is he ready and willing to be a part of your world, or you his? If the answer is yes, then you can know that proceeding to explore a relationship with him would be a viable thing to do. But if the answer is no, then perhaps you are barking up the wrong tree.

Not that any tree is wrong. You will learn regardless. But your learning can be more productive or less productive and expedient depending upon how quick you learn the lesson.

So let us examine what some of the lessons are with P.

Perhaps you still hold the sex equals love belief. Are you looking to P to fulfill your image of an appreciative lover? Do you want him to treasure you and hold you and appreciate your virtues as a female? Not that this is wrong, but is this appreciating the inner you and the essential aspects of you that you will take with you when you depart this world?

Perhaps you are looking externally for the love that you seek within. Do you wish that P would shower you with love so that your ego can be sated with what your spirit would otherwise be sating you with if you acknowledged your spirit energy? Your spirit and your soul are with you at all times, and at all times your soul and spirit are showering you with love and peace and joy and hope and care and passion for living life and giving of self to others. But as you look to others outside of self to award you or reward you with these virtues, you are looking futilely because this cannot be done. Another person cannot give you what you are not giving yourself.

So here is a major challenge to look at yourself, look deep within the soul and spirit of self, and find the golden nuggets of love and self appreciation that will reflect outwardly and draw to you the person who will want to share on an equal or higher level than where you are now.

Always look to the advancement that can be had in a relationship – the advancement of the soul and spirit, that is – because the advancement of material things is really just a shadow acquisition and ultimately it will not produce what satisfies you.

Now, P is indeed an advanced soul who cares deeply for you. You must realize this and acknowledge it and understand that he is doing the best he can at this time to show you the care in his heart. He does have a big heart and he wishes for you to know that you are deep within his heart and within his mind. Please take this to heart and know it. You must not doubt. Believe. Believe and succeed.

But neither of you is certain what lies ahead with the other. You do not need to answer these questions of future with each other because they cannot be answered at this time. You both have the ability to go with the flow and see where each day may bring you with each other. This is actually a great benefit of being in a relationship at a distance because you have the luxury of time and space to walk slowly, which is usually to be valued.

In the meantime, just enjoy your life. Do those things that you need to do, and follow your inspirations as they flow and as they come to your mind and into your heart. Your only goal with P should be to appreciate the gifts that he shares and to see the beauty within him and within yourself. Beyond that, attend to your responsibilities and give love to all. Shower the world with love as you see opportunity, and indeed there is opportunity in each and every breath you take to live love more fully in the world.

Share the love in your heart with P, without expectation, without question, without the goal of forever because forever cannot be defined in the physical plane. Just know that you are forever soul and spirit, and that as such there is no space and time boundary to your relationship with anyone, least of all with someone who has truly expressed the love of his heart with you.

So trust P. Know that his heart is in the right place, and that each of you is working to create some elements in your life that are important and significant and valuable not only to you as children of God - children of the good and of the love of the Creator - but to the Creator and to the Universe. There is no act of love that goes unnoticed or unfelt in the larger scheme of space and time and Universal energy.

Enjoy your life, L. It is the gift you have given yourself. To appreciate your life is to appreciate the gift of life that imbues you with the energy to live, to love, to share, to be, to come into larger and larger fields of creative energy as you and your energy join forces with the Creator.

Believe in yourself. Believe in your love. Believe in P’s love. And share all that is in a glorious celebration of life.

Be well. Thank you for listening.