Spirit energy, tonight I am a bit heavy in the heart but I’m also excited too. I’m sort of in an in-between zone. Can you help me sort out a few things? Yes. Whenever we are confused it is because our mind is not thinking from the center of our consciousness where the knowings are focused in love. In other words, you have some fear going on. Perhaps you fear loss, romantic loss. Perhaps you are feeling jealousy and resentment. Perhaps there is loneliness. Do these sound familiar?
Yes, indeed they do.
These are by no means uncommon emotions to feel, but they are indeed fear emotions because they focus on illusions of the mind – things that are not real but are created in our minds because of what we believe to be fact. You believe, for example, that your relationship with P could have unfolded differently. You fear what he may be thinking about you or not about you as the case may be. You are afraid that A will come into your territory again and disrupt the flow that you are feeling. You are afraid perhaps that
This time that you have to yourself is quite valuable because it gives you the opportunity to reflect without the distractions that may otherwise be present. It gives you time to think more clearly. There is no day in life that “things” do not happen to us. We are living life because life presents us with opportunities in each and every moment to examine who we are, and to be present in the world and to think more clearly each and every day as we begin to unpeel the onion-skin layers that may hide our inner selves from our conscious minds.
So the events of our lives allow us to look within, if at times for just brief moments. As you journal about these events, you are beginning to uncover wonderful little gems that are good to bring into the light. And you have been looking at these gems and finding a great deal of excitement about uncovering what you are uncovering and following what you feel is valuable guidance.
This is good. This is very good! The discovery process is all about opening the mind and allowing the thought to pour out what it needs to pour out, and to let in what will be useful to let in. In all cases, what we perceive to be “letting in” is really simply letting the subconscious mind and the unconscious mind infiltrate the conscious mind – the intellect. This is to say that the deeper parts of our mind are much more aware than our limited conscious mind. So to allow thought to move and flow more freely between these aspects of our mind is to allow growth to happen within us. We are expanding our mind and we are joining thought and we are becoming greater in our entire consciousness by virtue of expanding our mind.
To look within, we must not be afraid. Inside we will discover some fears, many fears perhaps, and we can begin to let them go. They are like balloons in that when they are touched by the pin of awareness, they loose their force and they deflate. But maybe piercing is not the best analogy. Let us just say we allow the air to leave gently, and we allow the fears to leave gently as they lose their potency.
So you have been uncovering some of your fears. This is good! You are bringing them into the open and into the light so that you can examine them and see what they hold – see them for the power that they have wielded and see them for the weightless illusions that they truly are once they are released.
Now, let us look at A for a moment. A is a special soul friend that you have traveled through time with. You have both shared dramas and traumas over your lives because it is through these experiences that we come to look within and touch our loving emotions even as our passions are inflamed. So there is nothing between you both that has not been shared.
The challenge for the both of you is to learn the lessons. The lessons can be learned with communication although communication doesn’t always need to be speaking. It can be conducted in many ways. In truth, you have been communicating, just not physically that much. But this has been valuable. It has allowed each of you a good deal of time to reflect upon the incidents that caused harm to the relationship, and the reflections have been good.
Is now the time that you want to reinstate a more active friendship? It is up to you both. You both have free will and free choice and free intention to create what you want to create. You do not need to follow anyone’s prescription for what is “right” in this situation. It is what you feel. You will learn from whatever you feel.
There is no rush because this situation can be healed on many levels. Do not feel pressure. It is your choice. The learnings are present. Trust this and trust your inner guidance to show you the next steps. In each moment you will feel the inspiration. You can check your thoughts and see if they feel right. And then proceed as is comfortable. Your comfort is paramount in this situation, as it is for A, and you can both find that comfort zone.
With respect to P, there is still much discovery afoot within him. You may want to allow him some time to digest some of the things that you have said. Trust that he, too, is a soul mate, and he is there for you in his heart. His heart is warming in a number of ways in his life. But his solitude and his lifestyle allow him a good deal of reflection time. This is important for him in this lifetime because in his last life he did not have much time to sit and think about anything. He was go, go, go. So now he has a chance to catch his wind, and pause and relax a little in life, to enjoy life’s small moments all on his own.
You probably see many similarities between him and J. This is no accident for you. It is perfect that you are taking yet another look at the energy of restraint. It is an energy that in some ways you aspire to hold more of, as you are given to more spontaneity that does not always serve you. Restraint is the better part of valor as the saying goes, but let us just say that restraint can be a valuable approach in life, as it gives us time to contemplate our actions and then act when we have more fully assessed the implications of potential action. There is a maturity in this approach to life, and it is this maturity in both J and P that appeals to you. You see the demeanor of knowing, of good judgment, awareness and self control, almost fatherly in its calm center of being.
Look at this and know that they are each playing a role for you, as you are playing a role for them in showing values and approaches that they find appealing and interesting and warm. You are sharing with each of them even as your time of closeness passes. Remember that the planets circle the sun. And the sun moves in the sky as does the galaxy and as does our universe. Nothing stays still; all revolves. So these energies and these lives that you share with others – they, too, revolve and evolve, and will come back to a point of connection when the times are right, as the cycles hold their truth.
Have total trust in the way the Universe works. There is total purpose and intention in each and every movement. There is never loss; there is only change. And change is the miracle of our existence. So you can rejoice that there are changes in your life – changes that make you happy, changes that challenge your happiness, and changes that show you that happiness is truly yours to live in this life. Your happiness is a vibrancy about you and it is a big part of the beauty that you share.
So welcome change, welcome happiness, and welcome these friends into your life or out of your physical contact - it is your choice, but know that all serve rich purposes and all have a soul commitment to you, as you do to them, to share and learn and grow and love.
Your love and theirs is eternal, and therein is the miracle of all relationships.
Have fun tonight. Good night.
