Yes, we can help you remember what was in your mind at the time. At the time, you had some fear about your future. You had some sadness about the loss that you were feeling in Erica growing up and leaving the home. And you had a sense of loss about your relationship with Chad reaching the point where he no longer found pleasure in being in the home. In solidarity – in your mind – you felt it was time to let go of your attachment, too, so that you would not be the lone ranger holding down the fort.
In many respects, this was a good choice, a solid choice that would allow you to let go emotionally and to begin to create a future for yourself that would be yours, singularly, without strings attached. You would have a bright new future that would be new and fresh and not “tainted” by the emotions so connected to your home.
This was an important decision for you to make. It was the right decision. It was a decision based in practicality. You can commend yourself for having the strength to make this decision.
Now, you are feeling pangs of regret because you feel the loss. You see, there is always a sense of loss when we realize that which was is no longer when there is still emotion. Slowly, you can allow the emotion to dissipate, like waters in the summer on the Serengeti. There is a time to let the emotion fade, dry up. But – you can have the memories, and the memories are like the moisture in the clouds, where the precipitation will come in time, and the memories will flood, and you can feel the connection to that which was. There is no time in the mind because the mind retains all forever. There is never any loss, truly. There is only gain.
And you have gained from this experience. You have gained because you have learned a valuable lesson: the lesson of letting go. You see, letting go is an act of strength. It is an act that speaks to the emotions of courage and conviction. It is an act that understands that growth is needed and that growth will only be gained through the act of letting go.
So – you let go! This is good. In cycles, you will or you can or you may feel that you have not let go. But you see, letting go is all in the mind. It is a perception. And as you wish to perceive, so ye shall. Perceive and it shall be so.
Where do you want to place your thoughts now?
I want a new home – not new as in brand new but new as in new to me. I want a different home. I want a home that has my signature – me at this time, me as independent, me as farmer, me as joyful being in the sun, me as smaller footprint, me as abundant creator, me as lover, me as owner of cats, me as gracious host. I want my new home to accommodate friends who want to stay with me. I want the home to be open, to be accessible, to be a place where others can join me in living, on the property if not in the home. I want a barn to use for dancing. I want sun! And I want the home to be an interesting and unusual shape, the perfect feng shui. I am excited about this home in the sun – with some shade but – out of the woods.
Then – this is the home that you shall have. Believe in this home. See it. Envision it. You can create it. Think of all the possibilities. Think of the opportunities. You can have this home. It is yours in your emotional/mental escrow. Now – go about finding it. Look under every stone. You can have it.
How can I say goodbye to my old home? It brings me tears. It was a good home.
Your old home will always have you as part of it – as it will have the Thomases, who also loved it. The new owners, too, will love it. You see, the house itself was ready for new owners. It was time, Linda. It was time to let go and to allow the home to naturally unfold into the arms of new owners who would be able to flourish there. You were done flourishing there. This was a knowing within you. Your flourishing could be done – can be done now in a different environment.
So – to say goodbye to the home, just send it love. Send love to the fish, to the animals that made your home their home, too, in the woods – send them love. Send love to the neighborhood. Send love to the neighbors. Send love to the beams, the doors, the windows, the rooms, the paint on the walls, and to all the changes that you brought there by virtue of the love you had, and will always have. The home loved you. You loved the home. We are complete.
Now, turn to that which you want. Turn to the flourishing you will now have in your new home. Create this new home as a great act of creativity.
What about Erica? I want the new home to be hers, too. I want her to love it and to be a part of it because – this was the greatest part of my last home – the fact that it was hers too and that she loved it.
We cannot control the thoughts of another being, but – you can invite her to love the new home. Do what you can to encourage her to visit you and to appreciate what virtues the home will offer. She will respond, we are sure. She will treasure the home because it will be a home that you treasure. She will see it through your eyes. Your happiness is very important to her. Show her your happiness, and she will understand what draws you there, and toward that energy she will be drawn.
Same for Chad? Will he visit? Will he love?
Yes, Chad will visit, and Chad will love, for the same reasons that Erica will visit and love. For the two of them, your happiness is all they wish for.
Why, then, do I cry upon hearing those words?
You cry because you have compassion for yourself, knowing that you are loved as you are. You cry because you feel the beauty and the surrender to love. This is a blessed feeling that always opens the heart, and when the heart is opened, out pours our compassion. Tears are a sign of compassion. Be well. Be happy. Know that you are loved.
Thank you, Angels. This business of the home has been on my mind deeply for the past few weeks, particularly triggered by Ozma coming back home. I want a place for my cats to live, where they can be free to go outside and to be part of the landscape – where they can romp freely. I so want this for them and for me!
Then, this you shall have. Be patient. Be knowing. Be expecting. Be joyful. And be surprised at how quickly and perfectly the universe works. Your life, your eternal life, is unfolding. You are becoming. You are never still. Be joyful at this becoming. Know your humanity. Believe in your connection to All That Is. There is nothing between you and All That Is except perception. Believe in the unity, for it is real and it will serve you in all dimensions.
Today was a good day. Now – believe in your tomorrow. Make it a joyful tomorrow. Bring happiness to others. Be YOU!
God bless you, Linda, with thanks for listening to our words.
We are in spirit your spirit energy.