Dear Angels of my Higher Self: This week has been tough. I had an exchange of words with a co-worker on Monday - I was negative and critical. I apologized to her later, but I'm amazed as I think of how sharp I was. I don't feel settled about it. How can I erase the negativity I feel - the fear - and help make this a positive experience? Tonight and this week you have been feeling uncomfortable about your behavior and your thoughts. You are feeling that you could have done more, or that you could have acted more appropriately, or that you have "sinned." In essence, you are judging yourself by the religious beliefs that are part of your soul memory.
But you see, you needn't judge yourself for this experience. Nor should you judge W. You are both working on the lesson of acceptance, and value, and appreciation, and patience. As you were not patient with her, she, too, is not being patient with you. So you are mirrors for each other.
Now, this mirror does not please you. You see aspects of self that you would like to disown.
Indeed, you can disown them. Disown them in your mind as you understand that all experiences are for the good of the soul. All experiences are for the learning the soul can gain.
In this experience with W., you have learned what you do not want. You do not want residual negativity.
When we erupt, whether it be like a volcano, big and loud, or whether it be softer like water through a blow hole in an ocean cove, it is still a release of energy, which causes a reaction. The reaction to negative energy can be to move away from the energy - which happens when you are positive, or the reaction can be to move TOWARD the energy - which happens when you are negative. Like attracts like.
In this instance, your like attracted like.
So you can now try to put your mind, your thoughts, in a good space. Think of the good in W. Think of the good in yourself. Perceive yourself and all those around you through a window of white light, so that there is positive energy emanating on the other side of the window.
Now, there is always an opportunity for you to make further amends with W. You may speak with her further, or you may write to her, to help her understand why this situation arose. You can explain that you were frustrated, and that the frustration had gone on for a long time, and that you stuffed your feelings and that they finally erupted. This is understandable and W. should understand because she is, as a soul, a gentle person and a good thinker despite her exterior. The exterior is only a shell. Underneath or inside the shell is a being of great purpose and great proportion. She will understand.
But you must be gentle, for she is sensitive and will take your words to heart.
Now, this is the time when you can begin to soften your own energy so that you will be less intimidating to others and more open to gentle exchanges. This is brought about by engaging the humble side of self. Tune into humility. Cultivate humility. You have nothing to fear, nothing to gain by hanging onto the ego. The ego takes you down the road of destruction at every turn. There is never a turn with the ego that does not destroy - although there is nothing that is destroyed that cannot be rebuilt.
So - trust that you can rebuild a relationship with W. In fact, you can build something beyond what you have so far imagined possible. This is because when you think with love, you automatically draw unto yourself greater and greater amounts of loving energy. Again: like attracts like. Think love, BE love, feel love, know love, and love will come unto you. There is no other way. This is the Law of Attraction. It is unfailing.
So do not judge yourself for what has transpired with W. But do begin to move out of the judgment and frustration and concern into the lighted area of love and forgiveness and gentle thinking. You will both gain from this.
Thinking beyond W., you will find comfort in drawing new people and new energies to yourself as you think with love. This is very important for you to do at this time because you are at a new and keen juncture with some of the work you are engaging in. You are cultivating new channels of energy, new knowledge, new ways of thinking and being in the world. This is good work and it is important work, especially for you as a soul because it was part of your soul commitment to yourself in this life to be of service to others, to help bridge a gap between how we think and what we create in this world. The ultimate act of creation is to love our Creator with all our heart, mind and soul, and through this love begin to see the power of creation that we have in our own hands.
See your power of creation, L., and express it in as many ways as you can. By living life - simply by LIVING LIFE - you ARE the act of creation. But to create consciously, through combining your thoughts with your loving emotions and spirit senses, you create great levels of - creations. Your power of creation is immense as you believe it to be so. In effect, all that is, IS, because we believe it to be. The mind is the creator.
So live your love in each and every moment. Let go of judgment, especially the judgment of self because the judgment of self is self-defeating behavior. You can model this love of self as you extend your love to each and every person you encounter.
BE love. Be the love you want to feel. Seek and it shall be given.
Enjoy your life - that is, BE IN PEACE AND JOY.
Tonight, today, NOW is your point of power. Enjoy your power.
Goodnight.
